Meet Pam
Posted by kidbaliw at 07:58 AM on January 7, 2009 in timeline, real world.
On my way to work, ka pm ko yung friend ko. My friend's name is Pamela Lozano or Pam for short. Hindi ko naman siya super close like during my teenage years or even college years. Pero we keep in touch through YM (Yahoo Messenger) paminsan minsan.
Well I had little cute memories with her. Ang alam ko kaservice ko siya (kasi nung elementary ako, naka school bus ako) kay Mang Romy. Our route is Proj 4, 3 & Cubao. Kaming dalawa yung last na inihahatid kasi parehas kaming Cubao. Hindi ko din siya ka classmate, Pam belonged with section 2 which is Visayas (i think) tapos ako section 1 and it's Luzon noong Grade III kami.
Anyways, gaya nga ng sabi ko walang maxadong memories pero ang hindi ko malilimutan sa babaitang ito was noong naglalaro kami ng sailormoon.. Alam niyo yun? Pretending we're the sailor warriors.. Haha! Syempre ako si Sailormoon aka Bunny at siya si Sailor Venus ata. Haha! Tagal na nun kaya hindi ko na maremember kung paano namin nilalaro yun. Hehe! Ang alam ko pa yata naging ka classmate niya si Daryl Jett Celis (Yung sa Pinoy Idol?) yep kaschoolmate ko siya.
Ayun alam ko din partner in crime ko siya sa mga kalokohan na ginagawa namin kapag pauwi na kami. Anjan yung mag hahampas kami ng pamaypay ng mga Highschool students ng Juan Sumulong Highschool sa Cubao.. Hehe.
Well ang reason why I posted her here kasi natawa lang ako sa nasabi niya noong ka PM ko siya kanina via my new fone. Yeah.. May new fone na ako, it's a secondhand pero I'm diggin' the features I swear.. Thanks kay meow for recommending the phone.
Yun nga, ang sabi ni Pam:
"Oi babae, kelan ba tayo magkikita? Pag pupunta ka sa San Mateo or sa Marikina text mo ko.. (09********) Kelan ba huling bonding natin? Mga 9 years old pa yata tayo nun.. Kay Mang Romy pa. Haha. Cge maya nalang ingat sa pag pasok Mwah!"
Well uu nga naman super ilang lighyears nang nakalightyears na ang nakalipas since I had those bonding moments with Pam. She's also working in a call center kaya lang in a GY shift.
I do look forward to meet her soon. Dami sigurong mga kwentos and all that. Haha. Ikaw ba naman lightyears na ang pagitan like hello?
Here's Pam..
December 31st, 2008
Big Girls Don't Cry
Posted by kidbaliw at 11:21 PM on December 31, 2008 in what I'm feeling.
"It’s quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is actually your weakness"
I made a decision. Big girl decision. I'll listen to the people who knows what's good for me. Sometimes I do make stupid decisions that in the end makes me miserable. I believe it will be different this time around.
I won't be selfish anymore. Happy New Year Guys!!
December 27th, 2008
Xmas Madness...continues
Posted by nessieric at 04:04 PM on December 27, 2008 in .
Pagdating ko sa bahay, inaway ko tlga si hubby dahil nga tulog ang mga bata ng christmas eve. well on his part nman sabi nya he tried waking them up, ayaw daw. anyway, i let it be and i was ready to move on, to finally enjoy the christmas day. I had never been this wrong.
So nagayos na kami papunta sa family ko sa qc to celebrate xmas. We took a taxi papunta dun since dala namin ang kids among other things.pagbaba ng taxi, hinahanap ko yugn wallet ko, tapos nagkatinginan kami ni hubby. Sobrang shocked tlaga ako, hindi ko akalain na magiging ganuon ako katanga, sa araw pa n ayun of all days nman.naiwan sa taxi ang wallet ko.andun lhat ng ids, pera, atm ko.tumakbo ako palabas ng bahay, hinahabol yung taxi although i know deep down huli na ang lahat. tapos tumakbo ako papunta sa tita ko 2 say what happened then mukaha akong tangang umalis uliot, nsa kanto unsure and trying to clear my head to see how can i handle this the best way fo rmy kids.dinatnan ako ni hubby at ni cedie naglalakad aimlessly pabalik ng bahay, speechless.andun sa wallet yung pangbinyag ni cyrus, yung pambili ng food na iaambag namin for christmas etc.
una kong nasabi kay hubby at kay cedie "sorry". sorry kasi ang tanga tanga ko, sorry kasi hindi ko sinasadya mawala yun so sorry kasi i mqay not be able to give the best as i could give sana. sabi ni hubby, "bakit ka nagsosorry?", sabi ko kasi nangyari ito. then i started on thinking what i could have done to prevent it frm happening, siguro dapat ganito, cguro hindi mangyayari yun kung hindi ako ganyan etc.then he started saying oo nga mas mabuti sguro kung ganito pero wala na yun, andyan na yan eh.lika na uwi na tayo, hinahanap ka na dun.
paguwi sa bahay, diretso akong umakyat sa dati kong room, at yun na umiyak na ako ng umiyak.sabi ni hubby, anu ba, wala na yun.bakit umiiyak ka pa?
then bigla dumating yung pinsan ko, hinahanap daw ako ng tita ko kasi nga alam nya na nawalan ako. ayun binigay yung pamasko nya kay cedie.until now yun ang panggastos namin.good luck na tumagal ito pero better than nothing.
one thing i realized though na its really not the money that makes up christmas although of course it is a big thing.hindi ko man naenjoy mashado yung xmas, buo nman kaming family.
hayz, christmas madness tlaga.
December 24th, 2008
X-Mas Madness...
Posted by nessieric at 11:24 PM on December 24, 2008 in .
First of all, merry xmas sa lahat.im hoping na you have enjoyed your christmas.
Ako nman ewan ko lang.Last Christmas, ito ang first post ko:
Tapos na nga ang Pasko at naaalala ko pa na sa pagpatak ng alas-dose kailangan pang nung "moment" talaga na yun kami mag-katampuhan ni "panget"-(eric). kase nman, syempre saktong x-mas, gigisingin ko sila diba, yun din nman ang plano..eh dahil iglesia sya dati, hindi sya sanay na magpakahirap for a perfect moment sa pasko.. this is just one of the things na nakakainis talaga sa kanya..papasamain pa loob koh eh gigising din nman pla at mag-eefort na i-enjoy yung xmas moment, yun nga lang 20 minutes later..
At this year eto naman: NA NAMAN
At ngayong Christmas Eve, may pasok ako sa office but before I went out, I made sure na lahat ng kakailanganin ng family ko sa christmas eve eh kumpleto na like gifts, socks with candies, christmas noche buena. Eric promised that he will make sure my kids will wake up at exactly 12am to enjoy christmas. Kaya ako nman nagpa-adjust ng breaktime para saktong alas-dose eh makausap ko sila sa phone.
To my great disappointment, they are all sleeping.... SLEEPING!!!!!
I felt like crying kasi nman 2 hrs lang tulog ko tapos todo minadali ko magwrap ng christmas gifts para sa kanila tapos ganun lang sleeping...I dont want to feel this way especially TODAY! But I cannot help it. I cannot help my stomach churning with anxiety, disappointment and fury over this matter. Im starting to hate Christmas Eve, starting to feel so badly disappointed that I am starting to think if we being so different from each other is really meant for each other. How many times na nga ba ako nadidisappoint tuwing pasko, na parang lumipas lang. I had hoped na it will mean something more for my kids but certain people are not just uncooperative but so dense they could not see that this is really REALLY important to me.
Iam so tired I could fall off my feet but i thought its ok, its worth it but now im not so sure.Sobrang kakabanas, nakakainis, nakakagalit so much na gusto ko silang awayin, umalis ng bahay, maglayas at kung anu-ano pa. Its making me sad din na I should have these kind of feelings of all days it could be, bakit ngayon pa. Well i told myself, someone will pay for this, if not everyone, at least SOMEONE.
I do not feel like going to our family reunion anymore, I do not feel like celebrating anymore, I do not feel like smiling anymore, I am trying so hard to smile Im sure the one im smiling at could see it. I am promising myself never again will I spend christmas this way. If it means having Christmas away from him and his insensitive and aaaaaggghhh mother next year, ill take it. I wont talk to her today, I wouldnt wish to make things worse and say things Ill regret. But still it is so tempting..I think this is what they call Christmas Madness...
Thanks for listening and Merry X-mas everyone, umm, i mean for the rest of you...